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Dear Diary: Real Diary Post 3: Sorry I Have Been Gone. New Car, & MY Father’s Death.

Yes, I have been missing here on the blog lately. Not by choice. I had to take a break from everything in my life because I was going through a lot. I’ve been on a total spending spree of stupid little stuff; my way of coping is retail therapy.

I had to pay for everything out of pocket for my dad. My sister, my mom (they are divorced), and my maternal grandma did help though, which was amazing since they didn’t have to.

My dad holding me playing my first video game.
My dad holding my eldest daughter.

He was a bad alcoholic and didn’t take good care of his body. He was only 63 when he died from a sudden major heart attack. He lived in Hawaii and I haven’t seen him in 5 years. He pushed everyone away because of his alcoholism.

I feel stunted in my writing, I don’t know if it’s from the stress or what. I hope to get my writer’s block taken care of because I love to write. I just don’t feel like writing much these last few weeks. What is usually fun and entertaining to me seems like a chore at the moment.

Something to distract me from the whole thing. ๐Ÿ™

I got a new car, but that has been overshadowed by my loss. I had the 1/3 crisis that I wrote about in my article, 31 SIGNS YOU MIGHT BE HAVING A 1/3 LIFE CRISIS, and yes, I went and bought myself a sports car. I was responsible in the fact that I bought the only 5 seated sports car besides something like a Rolls Royce.

The Dodge Challenger.

Say hello to Suzie Q.

I. LOVE. IT. Yes, I am in love. It’s a fun ride, and I recommend it to all.

Does everyone remember the Dodge Magnum? The station wagon Charger? Well, they are talking about bringing it back, but it will be called a Charger Wagon.

I don’t like the Chargers, they look like sedans than sports cars. I know this is only a concept car below the Mustang but I am totally looking forward to its release. Since Mustang is releasing its crossover, they are going to need to keep up. Check it out.

Mustang electric SUV.

Challenger Wagon Concept.

There are some new kool cars coming out that aren’t the same ol’ shit. Finally. I always knew when I watched IRobot that those cars were the one thing that would probably happen.

I love you dad, and I will always remember the good times and the bad. That is what life is all about, and I am just sad that addiction had to take you so soon. You lost your father when you near my age, I’m just sad that you never got to meet your other grandchildren and won’t be walking me down the aisle. ๐Ÿ™ RIP RJP.

I can never listen to The Beatles ever again though. His favorite band and he listened to them all the time, so now I guess if I need a good cry I can listen to them.

I am going to be using the ashes in my memorial tattoo. Yes, that is a thing, and I can’t wait to show everyone.

Stay clean my loves.


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